Finally

I met someone last year.

Since I kicked my ex-husband out in 2005, my focus has been my daughter. For years her life had no schedule, mommy worked, daddy stayed home and watched tv with her. The worst part is that I would call home at night and ask my daughter "what is daddy doing" she would say "outside smoking", he never entertained her, she was bored and I felt guilty. My ex has supervised visitation one day a week....he hasn't seen my daughter in more than 4 months I tried to contact him out of guilt that she hadn't spoken to him and I got sworn at and I hung up....I tried....I will try no more. I made drastic changes in my life to improve her life and it has worked out....never been happier.

I never thought it was possible to meet someone at work that totally rocks your world, but I did. Can't give too many details, don't really want to and right now some things are a little complicated but I know that I will be with him for a very long time...I really believe that we were meant to be together, I have never felt so connected with anyone in my life. He has accepted my daughter and I without any hesitation. He is amazing, probably the most amazing man I have ever met. He treats me with love and respect and treats my daughter like she deserves to be treated. She LOVES him and so do I.

Because of my past relationships I feel like I hover sometimes and I am so afraid of scaring him away, or rather pushing him away. It's hard for me to express and talk about things that happened, fears I have, but I know I need to.....