I have struggled with my weight my entire life....well at first it wasn't my struggle, it was my mothers. I was always told in no uncertain terms that I was fat. When I was in 8th grade my mom brought me to the doctor and had her put me on a diet, it was the "Slender" diet (now slimfast). I ate a tiny cube of meat and veggies with dinner while my entire family sat there and ate big thick steaks and baked potatoes. There were always chips and jellybeans "hidden" in the house, by hidden I mean in plain view. It wasn't easy being on a diet when no-one else was. School was the worst, I had to bring a canned shake in a paper bag and drink it away from my friends then go join them and eat an orange, it was humiliating.
I didn't always think I was fat but because I was told so, I believed it. I have been on almost every diet...Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem, Adkins (momentarily), LA and every time I stop them I get bigger.
This time will be different for me. It is nice having someone there to support you and tell you the cookie dough you really want isn't good for you (duh that's why I want it!), it's nice to have someone to share the cooking duties with on a nightly basis and discover new foods together.
I only lost one pound this week, but it is one pound closer to being a weight I haven't been in years and I am very proud of myself.
My promise is, I will never let myself get back to the weight I came from. I will do this for myself, my health and for my daughter. I want to be around when she is older.
